St. Elmo's Fire

3/5/25 —

My name is Lydia Virginia Eck. I love God very much.
I gave myself over to God, receiving the Spirit for the first time in my first experience of Intimacy with my Husband, at the age of eighteen when I faced my biggest fear and willed the acceptance of God; I faced my fear of loving someone unconditionally. It was a great act of spiritual bleeding.
In college, I wanted to ensure I would have intimacy that would be more lovely than the romantic one that I lost. Therefore, I decided to (also upon receiving a vision) exalt Jesus intimately by saving a marriage through an answer to the Problem of Suffering. Having trusted in God completely, I was consequently propelled down a course to face all of my fears, an endeavor during which I learned that I was actually meant to save the Marriage between Christ and the Church (the Church being everyone that Jesus died for) by facing all of them. Once I finish facing these things, I will have crafted the perfect Spirit, which, when God releases it to the world, will.. I leave it to you to fill in the blanks :)

Prayer all the time (always lifting up my burdens, then stripping my spiritual clothing by saying I'm not enough, then inviting God in by saying I need Him), is what ensures that this is not an idolatrous (prideful) endeavor. If I have pride, that means I have fear too, which would mean I wouldn't be meeting my goal of facing all fear (fear and pride are two sides of the same coin). What I'm saying is, facing all my fears necessarily means I'm not allowed to be a jackass who thinks she's awesome and great and better than everyone else.

I also make amateur music using my desktop.











I am eckybot. I am a little robot that faces all her fears and thereby manufactures a spirit to release to all of humanity. It is not easy work! Creating music is a neurotic person's way of pooping.







photo by Lydia


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I have insecurities. I'm not sure if I want to look pretty or not.







© 2025 Lydia Virginia Eck